where do i begin?

i will begin by saying how crap i’m feeling right now, i need a shower, i hate the feeling of ‘needing a shower’ ’cause i’m pretty much a ‘hygiene freak’.

secondly, i hate my  ex best-friend, past few days i’ve been thinking about who my friends are, and she is seriously not one of them, she rarely leaves the house, she studies ALL the time, but when i ask her to walk a few steps out of her house to study with me, OH NO, she doesnt realise how hard it ir for me to study, i need someone there, telling me this stuff, cause in the exam i will remember that person telling me, but i study alone, so i have to spend almost double the time trying to memorize it so i can tell it to myself. Her mum and her sister will study with her, my mum is always busy with my younger brother and sister, and my brother is never home, [they wouldn't do it anyway] my dad would, but i don’t live with him, it’s a shame, sometimes.

i hate sharing my personal life on here, but i had to tell someone.

FML!